This morning while I was completing a hollotropic breath work session from the Soma Awareness 21-day program my eyes welled up in tears as I was connecting with the divine within, the Holy Spirit.
I could feel an ounce of God’s love and it felt amazing! Here I am, someone that is imperfect with many flaws, weaknesses, and sinful tendencies and still I felt just a tiny bit of how much God loves me exactly as I am. It was an unbelievable realization which should be something I always comprehend. The Bible is full of examples of how much God loves us as we are and how we were created in His perfect image.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.John 3:16
Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command.
I spend so much time trying to improve myself: setting goals (recently I have been writing down 20 year goals!), making to-do lists, taking classes, reading endless self-help material, trying to untangle old habits, and trying to constantly become the best version of myself. But I am already perfect in God’s eyes! Exactly as I am, right now.
Why do I feel the need to continually improve?
Who am I trying to improve for?
- My friends?
- My family?
- Is it for strangers?
- Or God?…
Acquiring wisdom is good.
“Let the wise listen and add to their learning.”Proverbs 1:5
Trying to be the best version of myself is good.
But my underling motivation for trying to change is important to think about.
Why am I trying to improve, why am I trying to learn something new each day, and who am I doing it for?
I have to remember that I am loved as I am right now and that I am loved however I am in the future.